My name is Mariah Haroon. I became an American citizen in September 2006 and I will be voting for the first time this November.
As a permanent resident for 6 years I have been looking forward to this opportunity to vote and let my opinion matter. I moved to the U.S. on August 11 2001...exactly a month before 9/11. I didn't really get a chance to see 'the America before September 11th' for too long. But the calm that I experienced for a month before the storm was a testament to how things were pre-9/11.
I got engaged to my husband who is also a Pakistani American, in January 2001 , and moved to the U.S. seven months later from Karachi, Pakistan. I remember how much easier it was for my husband to sponsor me as a fiancé compared to what people had to go through later. I have personal friends who couldn't get their fiancés and even spouses to come to America just because their loved one's name matched a terrorist's name on the exit control list. So needless to say I felt relieved that I was here before this mayhem started. However, I missed my own country, my family and my friends terribly. Not only did I have to adjust to my new surroundings but also to a completely new world after 9/11. Friends were kicked off airplanes and held at airports for days unable to contact their loved ones. Relatives were yelled racial slurs for being Muslims. It was truly discouraging, heartbreaking and it made me feel worse about leaving Pakistan and coming to America to start a new life.
But here is why I now feel attached to this country and its political system why I want to vote: A few months after I got here I started to look for stuff that would make me feel more comfortable and well-adjusted here. I started going to school and work. I was around people who have lived all their lives here. As I started working closely with them I felt mutual trust and respect. I did not find them to associate the word 'terrorism' with 'all Muslimsâ€. When current affairs and politics came up during lunchtime conversations, I did not feel uneasy. Instead I was able to clear any misunderstandings about Islam and the Muslim world without people disregarding my opinion. That is when I realized that the people of this country could be quite tolerant and understanding. As long as they are not lied to and confused by their leadership.
I grew more and more eager to vote and participate in changing such leadership.Seven years later, here I am. Finally able to vote as a citizen. But as a first time voter, I am confused. I have two candidates to choose from. Do I vote for Barack Obama who promises a change but is already talking about attacking Pakistan 'if the government is unwilling to help America find Bin Laden' on its soil. Or do I vote for John McCain whose present party leader is responsible for two major wars, the one in Iraq for absolutely no reason at all , and a financial deficit of trillion dollars.
'You have to think as an American, not as a Pakistani. Your children will grow up here, it's their future you are voting for', said a Pakistani American friend of mine over dinner at a local burger place.
And it is true. My vote will affect the world in which my four-month-old will grow up. I don't want to vote for war, ignorance and financial chaos. The choice seems clear for a moment...maybe I should vote for Obama. But then I think about my brothers who live in Karachi, Pakistan. I think about my grandfather and my aunts and uncles and cousin and freinds..and my life there. I am who I am because of Pakistan. I was educated there and grew up to be a confident and secure adult because of the love and care from the people around me. I cannot forget about that when I am deciding whom to vote for.
If only Senator Obama could understand my point, he will make this choice so much easier for me. If only, instead of talking about 'going into Pakistan to get Osama Bin Laden', he changes his policy to 'seeking permission and cooperation from the government of Pakistan', I will not think twice before voting for him.
I am absolutely certain that the Pakistani government will be willing to help, as they have been doing so for the past seven years. But there is absolutely no way this country can take on another war. The new president should consider that we went into Iraq to find the nuclear weapons. Here we are, five years later with no nuclear weapons, a broken down economy and a tarnished image in the eyes of the whole world.